My Burden Bearer

I AM NUMB LORD...I JUST READ THE HEART'S CRY OF ONE CRYING IN THE WILDERNESS, AND I AM TORN BETWEEN MY OWN SELFISH NEED FOR YOU AND MY LACK OF SPONTANEOUS LOVE OF THE BRETHREN...
I DON'T EVEN HAVE THE WORDS TO EXPLAIN MY HEART...AND I FALL BEFORE YOU CONFESSING MY NEED FOR YOUR HELP...
I KNOW THAT THIS HOUR IS LATE...
I KNOW YOU WANT ME TO LEARN TO REIGN IN THE POWER OF YOUR SPIRIT...
LORD, I DESIRE TO REIGN WITH YOU...WHERE DO I START?...
YOU ASKED ME TO SURRENDER...PERHAPS I HAVE NOT SURRENDERED AS YOU WILL...
I CONFESS THAT I AM A SINNER...ONLY YOUR GRACE CAN SAVE ME FROM THE STRONGHOLD OF MY WILL...DELIVER ME O LORD MY GOD.
LET NOT THE ENEMY OF MY SOUL REJOICE OVER ME...
AS HE ANTICIPATES HIS VICTORY...I SHALL HOLD FAST THE PROFESSION OF MY FAITH...I SHALL CLING TO THE CROSS WHERE YOU CRIED, "IT IS FINISHED"...AND DECLARE THAT YOU RULE AT THE RIGHT HAND OF YOUR FATHER IN HEAVEN.

LORD, I CANNOT GO TO BATTLE, UNLESS YOU PREPARE ME...WITH UNDERSTANDING AND DISCERNMENT OF YOUR WORD...AND WHAT AUTHORITY IS MINE IN YOUR NAME...

I KNOW I WILL NOT BE DELIVERED BY SPIRITUAL WORKS OR WORDS AS IF BY MAGIC...I HAVE KNOWN THE DEFEAT OF SUCH IGNORANCE AND PRESUMPTION...IT IS SPIRITUAL PRIDE THAT HAS CAUSED IRREVOCABLE DEFEAT FROM DISOBEDIENCE TO YOUR PERFECT WILL...AS I WALKED IN SELF-RIGHTEOUSNESS, PRIDE, AND VEILED ARROGANCE...

I HAVE SEEN THE FACE OF THIS HARLOT IN THE MIRROR...BUT I HAVE ALSO SEEN HER HEART...SHE IS A SINNER LORD, YES...BUT SHE WAS A SLAVE.
HAVE MERCY ON HER LORD...HAVE MERCY...YOU BOUGHT HER WITH YOUR BLOOD....ONLY YOU CAN WASH HER AND MAKE HER CLEAN...ONLY YOU CAN CALL HER BY NAME, AND MAKE HER YOUR OWN...ONLY YOU CAN TEACH HER TO TRUST LOVE AGAIN, AND TRULY LOVE IN RETURN...

SHE IS NOT FIGHTING AGAINST FLESH AND BLOOD...HER ENEMIES ARE INVISIBLE...IT IS AN OPEN ATTACK UPON HER SOUL, BY SATAN HIMSELF...
YOU HAVE MADE IT CLEAR THAT YOU WILL NO LONGER RESCUE ME OUT OF MY UNBELIEF...THOUGH YOU COULD...FOR YOU WANT ME TO LEARN NOT TO EVADE OR ESCAPE THE LESSONS OF FAITH AND CONFIDENCE IN THE POWER OF YOUR MIGHT...IT IS NOT IN MY POWER OR MIGHT...OR ANY OTHER...IT IS BY YOUR SPIRIT...
YOU HAVE TOLD ME THAT...."THE ENEMY WOULD FLEE FROM YOU IF HE SAW ME"

DOES HE SEE FAITH?...DOES HE SEE CONFIDENCE IN THE KNOWLEDGE OF THE TRUTH?...DOES HE SEE THE PRESENCE OF YOUR SPIRIT IN ME__ WHO HAS ALL THE POWER OF AUTHORITY AGAINST HIM?...